~pnkrockgrl03

i have changed to a new location.. my new screen is xmetalheadx... iono.. i hpe to be able to fill the page with lots of deviations anyways it only has one deviation rigth now but i hope to e able to get some more soon...

but i will talk to you all later

*wink*

theres nothing to say really... i havn't done anything lately to talk about, i am now going into my mode of winter that concists of doing absolutely nothing... its basically hibernating... i get lazy, i get tired, i get bored, i wat go to sleep and start all over again.. it would be kinda nice to have people to hang out with every once in a while.. i have gr8 friends but they are all guys... sometimes a girl just needs girly time to hang out with girls and do girly things... like talk and actually have things in common... not that i don't have things in common with guys but its just not the same. i don't know... its just lonely. bla. everything seems so bla. oh well, have a blast all winter i'll have a grand time sleeping with ben(AKA: benadrill)

and miranda you have to come over when it snows and go somwmobiling with me and you to laura...

well i guess lifes peachy and i am in a much better mood than i have been lately. its kinda nice...

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wouldn't it be wonderful to have a big bath of peaches?... like on "james and the giant peach" only as a bath. mmm... i love peaches

Fuck Off!!!

wow i think it is really funny how people talk about me all the time... the thing they don't realize is its not doing anything for them... wow, you think people would asct more there age.

like for instance, brian and i are friends and people somehow find the need to discuss it... i wish people would stay out of my business.

and the whole me and matt thing i wish people would stop talking about that... matt and i are friends we hang out everyday because we enjoy eachothers company. i also wish people would stop talking about that like he and i are dating and i don't give a shit about him. because i fucking love matt... and besides the point everyone really needs to stop talking about me.

everyone keeps talking abuot me, why, i don't know but it deffinetly keeps coming back to me and i am kind of sick of hearing about it all the time. i don't do anything to anyone and i would appreciate the rumers to come to a stop.

sorry if i repeated my point over and over again but i want it to get across... but if you all want to keep talking i guess i don't fucking care.

yes well i have decided it would be best for me to hang out with no one but myself. i don't think that people understand me, and i guess i shouldn't expect them to becuase i don't even understand me. i need time to find myself. and the only way i can do that is to be alone. so now i can stop bothering everyone and i just wish to be left alone. no one gets hurt this way.

i also must say that i have learned that i can't trust anyone but myself, and sometimes i can't even do that. everyone that i ever cared about now seems to be angry at me and i am not understanding why. atleast now i will have plenty of time to figure it out.

and as i said before please (everyone) leave me alone and stop talking about me like you know me. becuase i can tell you right now that no one has ever met me, so that should give them absolutely no reason to be talking to me or about me.

if you really feel the need to talk to me i will not respond so if you don't feel like wasting your time, then don't bother.

i thought i loved so many people and i thought they loved me back... but i geuss i know better now.

until later on in life...